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Is it because I’m black and fat that……

May 12, 2015

I never forgot about four years ago having my first roommate a African guy.. a guy (big mistake, but you learn. He admitted to me that he thought I would be one of those very religious black girls who could also sing. Made me think recently of a old show where you stand in a room as strangers judge you based on your race,size, clothes,height,gender,ect. I’m curious how people really see me sometimes, but some don’t want to hurt feelings and become PC. Which is fine and expected, but if given permission I want the truth! Fat or thin I understand I can’t escape stereotypes that don’t apply to me.

If I had the body like the above would you think I was greatly deep in church and took over a solo and sing it up like ms. Franklin? To big mama, Norbit, and Madea,Nutty professor of black men cross dressing acting loud,ugly,praise the lord Jesus,asexual, of the ideal black woman many seem to enjoy seeing….those of us who are fat and black get these things tagged on us before anyone gets to know us/me. Even family guy show cases black women as fat and dumb in short mini clips.

Only recently are we seeing shows such as scandal with Kerry. A beautiful, successful black woman who is having a sinful affair with the president. I never saw one show, but Kerry is not fat and is in the media. Then how to get away with murder..saw a few shows and stopped. No offense 1 gay sex scene was ok, then 2….then 3, and Im thinking when will a black woman the main star of this show get to have some fun? So I stopped. She is a middle aged, average size black woman with a lot going on. She is not obese and thats all that matters. Then that Empire show. Never saw it due to hearing about the colorism in it. Cookie is not fat based on the ads. Its a start and a breath of fresh air away from the pine sol or bigger type ladies who make everyone around them appear better in looks.

I also feel when smaller you get a better choice of friends. All sizes get their fair share of bad friends, but I feel I attract the total opposite. Some things we all share such as a better life. I ignored one for a week hoping nicely she simply go away. I got text messages and I responded (I felt kinda bad) and back to knowing someone who says as a good word and is a woman too. Everyone knows I’m against such words. I was called a N…ga in the heat of her happiness as she saw me working with the computer saying in the nutshell that I’m smart….I’m thinking do we have to use the N word :/

I can’t wait to return to my state next year…and leave some behind making them fade away in a past memory. Sadly yes they want to move with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meaning pack up everything and join me in another state even though we won’t live together. I pictured my self all thin, in a two piece swim suit, playing and being all sexy like in the sand, my cute and very faithful yet hot husband comes near with our kids and this fantasy is ruined by girlfriends coming out of nowhere saying look at my n…ga!

Im slow….because I don’t like to react fast. When someone upsets me I don’t like to tell people off asap…I know what going on. My nice trait kicks in first and if it continues…days later and then it all builds up then I get angry which either have me calling 911 or reporting you to the manager. I don’ believe in fighting really and I was thought of as slow by the same two making plans to move to my state with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yup lets follow the slow one to a whole new state, the one who didn’t have any kids out of wedlock without a ring or at least not with someone very broke…yup Im the slow one.

I also still attract white girls who want to be my friend…who are fat to super fat, very rare skinny. They call their men ni…gas (yes black men), who struggle and tell me all their woes of their men problems. From his drinking, to he don’t want to work, and how he does this and that, but hey he has a big D (even without warning still get shown the D from their phones or hinted about).

I’m like if I was a skinny black girl would I attract this? I mean like would I at least have a choice like thin girls get in the dating market? You know normal friends with cute flaws or oh no so and so over spent again, but at the end of the day things are cool?

My fantasy friends are any race, no N words, its ok if shes fat or thin,but just a decent person. No one is perfect and even I have flaws. It was so nice when I was doing great in the weight loss world….omg.

I started attracting girls who were normal. White girls who exercised and were concerned of their image to the plus size white girl who wanted to lose weight as she claims for her health yet randomly mentioned wanting a boyfriend. To the thin black girl who invited me to her outing with other co-workers, she had the cutest, edgy afro, dressed always edgy rock clothes and was pretty popular, to slowly getting more invites to places I never thought of. Then there was another black girl who was like a size 2 talked to me. My weight loss was opening doors people.

Now fat me just gets invited to fast foods, cheap restaurants on the rare, school tours as a support to who ever I’m going with…………zzzzzzz.

As of now weight loss is a every day battle. I’ve been doing good lately and sadly by now if I stayed on track I would of reached goal by now. Slowly its coming off, but I have to hurry time is ticking!


omg two cute guys flirted with me! Woke up at 5am at 253.8 pounds, and racial stuff, fair warning!

February 9, 2013

Right now the scale reads 254.4 pounds, so by tomorrow I will be 253.something again.

Such slow weight loss!

I am doing the right things yet the scale….

I had a rare burst of energy at work even though my thoughts were on …guess? Food. Hungry no, it was like when a guy has a fantasy of a girl running towards her with long flowing hair, for me it was eating brownie after brownie savoring each taste….

My pants feel real loose and I love the feeling of walking in them with such space. These same pants use to be tight on me a long time ago (the size 22), I fit well into a size 18…..I can’t help to smile that maybe just maybe I will slip on a size 16!

I am so thrilled right now I just came from a pedicure and I have the worst feet in history…my feet doesn’t require the cute sand brush…the other tool that saws off the dead skin. I won’t go into any other details, but its best I don’t ever get with a guy with a foot fetish.

Anyway the guy who was doing my feet was a silly, lively, cute asian guy in his late 20’s or early 30’s , but looked great even though he had tattoos on his arm…not a fan of them, but he looked cute…sad right?

Anyway him and his buddy after small talk and I notice he kinda looked at me. He said do I have boyfriend? I said no not yet I am working on it!

Even though he laughed I wasn’t joking. I mean I got these panties saved for my wedding night that says I do on them….Im real serious.

Any way they said asian men know how to treat women. I said really?

Again I am not politically  correct and based on percentages they are right. Nor do I hear asian men creating terrible songs against their own women. Or having babies leaving them in large numbers.

I had to volunteer at a HIV/AIDS center and they had factual studies that were common sense to me.

All races no matter what do awful things, all!

But yes were all humans and all that wonderful Mr. Roger talk, but each racial of human type or whatever tend to have a stronger lean to it.

Like black Americans are known for corn bread and collard greens for example compared to Latinos who have more Latin cultured foods.

Like we see more black guys in foot ball then white guys…is that a lie? No.

We see more white guys in golf then black guys…is that a lie? No.

But based on my time at the center it said the highest hiv/aids rate are in the black race, they also said black men were more likely to cheat on their women. A connection yes. Reason why black women have more of this horrible disease then other races.

The lowest rating was Asians, (the lower the better), then whites, then Latinos and top rank were blacks.

My mom years ago (I was under age aka teen) reconnected with a old friend. The chair I remember sitting in  next to my mom and in front of us was him in his jail suit. They talked and my mom seemed to show interest, but that vanished quickly once she learned of his HIV and he was honest. He even mentioned sleeping with a white woman who claims he is the father before he got locked up and how he is not taking care of a biracial child. As he went on I thought about how this woman is trying to get this man to be a father figure who has zero interest what so ever. Plus did she ever find out about the HIV? Anyway he was out of our lives fast the rest is a hazy memory.

Like the study saying how blacks have a lower IQ has a flaw in it, but came close.

When going through 4th and 5th grade mainly white school, the slower students or ones falling behind parents funded them after school tutoring, when at my home my mom was being abused as I failed to the point teachers gave me the answers along with the biracial girl.

Not all whites have this advantage, but they are more likely coming from two parent homes compared to us…it makes a huge difference and more so when the two parent homes are positive. Not having maybe for example 6 brothers and sisters with one parent trying to make ends meet. In that type of environment the chances of doing well in school are not high, but its possible.

Blacks tend to come from single parent homes, some blacks with two parent homes get mad at those who speak the truth.

Anyway one told me to see him Monday…even tomorrow, but I said no no Monday. I hope I don’t chicken out.

Decent guys are my issue, non decent guys are not since I ignore them with ease by just continuing to walk away.

So yes I was thrilled that these guys coming from a more decent back round already saying they treat women well is a good sign.

I will be honest. I want kids badly someday, but if somehow that Jesus came and said marry that black dude over there I will change religions 100 percent not even going 40 percent Christian. All the women in my family didn’t have great male role models and no they all didn’t get with thugs many were business type guys, dreamers, average, its a myth that all black women are going for thugs so thats why 70 percent of black babies are born out of wedlock not true. Some or maybe many I don’t know, but based on my family not true…maybe one though.My great grandma had a wonderful black husband and because of it she is still living in the home he built many years ago that is in great shape. My great great grandmother had a wonderful black husband  as well. Notice the mention of GREATS not now greats. Some black men out there are good, just not a balanced amount. Its a risk for those who must have them one *shrugs*

If I really did get with my own race I wouldn’t have kids. I was thinking this yesterday to myself. Not interested in being yet another black woman single with a child. Too common.

I do hurt sometimes because at 25 I do long for that father who never wanted me. I refuse to have kids to suffer the same fate.

I mean if I had a divorce I would love to have a guy who still wants to take his kids out, and be with them, ect.

Not divorce and the end.

Weight loss attracts decent guys. being plus size you can too….but the percentage is not as high when thin.

I need to stay focus and not slack just because I got a little attention. I feel that was luck.

Today is proof that someday I will be married, but need to focus and work on getting over being shy of guys so I can say yea lets go out at 7pm tonight (like offered) or yea tomorrow, and sure monday and really show up!

Today the random burst of energy from work and the two guys made me as of now a little stronger from that ice cream sitting in the fridge.



All I want is to be thin, to wear cute clothes and see single digit 4, have kids then yes work the fat off me!, and have this wonderful marriage with both ups and downs, fun and stress, but never alone. I want my kids to have the life I wish I had seeing a real father figure who is there and never harming me or them, who shows my daughter this is what you seek in a man, and my son who he should be when he grows up. I will have it….just have to continue losing weight.



My confessions as a black woman…..on race and dating and what thin women taught me.

September 23, 2012

I was on the bus reading the new copy of Ebony magazine….its rare I even buy it! I don’t really like black magazines since they are kinda twisted such as putting Reggie Bush in front of Essence magazine as every black woman’s fantasy…when he only dates the Kim K’s and other non black women…what can we or other black women fantasize? Seeing him buy her a 50 grand pair of diamond studded shoes….is that suppose to be super sexy for us?

In Ebony’s magazine Oct 2012 issue they did a interview with a group of black men page 132. The men started out lying, but then…



Perry: I enjoy a woman of natural beauty…

Walter: Thats what we all want

Shawn: I typically like slender light skinned women with long hair (likely good extensions she has)

If you continue reading each mans reply its really light skin women with fake long hair or real.

And this is in a black magazine for both genders and what black men want. Reminds me when KING a black magazine thats like play boy announced with pride of using the first non-black woman on its cover when it was hardly old and still not as old as other magazines…me and my friend laughed like we were shocked they didn’t use a non-black on their first issue.

I can google now where dark skinned men sound like a kkk member against black women. This taught me at a early age that racists can be others or even your own.

My mother is a light skinned woman with a small nose in length and width such a strange nose indeed. She had the dark men admires big time! My mom is also plus size too, but Im bigger (how sad right?), but her being light skinned didn’t stop the men from abusing her, mistreating her, cheating on her, and stealing and lies, and even held a gun to her face.

I think all skin tones are beautiful from mines, to white, to asian, to Latin they are all beautiful, but I use to deal with my self worth. In the mirror my skin tone was fine and other races thought so too. Im only light in the winter and my skin tone now is brown since the sun, but it use to hurt when I had my own race thinking Im Latino and would follow me for months and when I say Im black it was like the end? I never had interest in him in the first place :/

My mother cooked, believe in us waiting until the man of the house was home before we could eat, she cleaned, and was a nurse too instead she got nothing in return was blows to her body and attacks and called black bitch and f you’s.

So to the point it annoys me when I hear so and so give his reason why he would never date a black woman some reasons can be true others for the main part are false. Even right next to me twice I had black men give high fives when they find out the other is dating a white woman Im like what if I did the same and gave a high five that im dating non black?

Me I give off friendly vibes Im guessing, sometimes I can be caught slightly smiling to myself because….Im day dreaming, Im playful and love joking around, I cry when Im hurt, I will keep how I feel about you to myself never tell you to your face, Im shy, quite, and someday hope to be a great mother and wife. Like my mom I want to cook, be there for my guy, wash his clothes, and hear about his day and everything that comes with it.

I feel I do have flaws like my feelings can be hurt to the point I will try to talk it out, but if you don’t talk it out…then I shut down and ignore you…for days.  I see the humor in some things that are not  funny to you, but to me it is such as you got a warning at work because you helped a customer who spent 4000 dollars worth of stuff put the and carry the things to the car only for them to call back to report they felt you wanted a tip when you say you didn’t….yes I will laugh…it was funny come on!

What Im saying is Im pretty decent, not loud as the media claims I am, Im shy, and looking for love as I drop this weight.

I feel I can stay out of the sun so much and become light naturally, stay fat, and date lil daddy have his kids and complain why he did me like that when he showed me all these tasteless signs before meeting him, but honestly since young my preference were always cultures with less wedlock rates and high marriage rates and less songs putting down their women. When I say this some do get mad….I find it more interesting that you know what cultureS I speak of.

I have seen a light skin black woman with no arms and legs, but with a black man.

I seen obese white women in wheel chairs tell me of their black men woes (dead serious)

I had seen and others seen white women who looked lesbian only to see her with a black man.

I seen Latin women three times the size of me with black men

I seen other races chubby to a little weight with black men.

What Im saying is sometimes they say they don’t want a black woman because she is not womanly, or not in shape, or uneducated only to get a different race with all the things he didn’t want in a black woman.

I had at work(my former job) a white coworker take her phone out to show me a pic of her black man’s penis saying look how large it is….to me it looked average and I careless about a mans size :/(I just want a man I mean he could have a one inch really) I said wow yea look at it (looks around where to leave her) she told me about him and how her their child went to get his hair cut and requested a black man’s hair style (she laughs, I fake laugh) he just got out of jail again she said and told me you know how (racist N word not the ga ending the er, both are bad really) I said um yea sure.

Some of these relationships do work out really nicely and have a happy ending? But I can’t help to notice the size of the woman and how really she supports him (black women do it too.

Thats another that that sucks me being a black woman sometimes white women kinda look at me like they won a prize :/ Black men are men and I can get one too if I wanted one…just I need to be thin and attract men who have a future and goals such as me.

When I worked at walmart a older white woman and very fat like me, but a few inches bigger in width looked at me and held his hand. I just smiled like um ok. She took out her food stamp card….yea.

Another time on the bus  this morbidly obese white woman leaned next to me in tears and asked why are black men such dogs? I was 15 and got off the bus fast. I was shocked and kinda creeped out. All races of men can be dogs really, but some cultures have higher rates of neg things?

I also notice the thin white and Latin and asian women have decent men who work like them or the women don’t work, he holds her hand and I don’t see a food stamp card being pulled out. Yes all races use food stamp cards, but …..

I feel guilty sometimes that I view all races of women who are thin as ideal. I hate the look of thick and obese such as myself. Its like why did I allow myself to get so large? Too much slacking for too long. I do try and see the beauty of the thick size…but its hard. When  I have kids they won’t be on a diet, but be very active so instead of feeling down and eating about it we will have the funds so they can run it out, bowl it out, ski it out, anything that will have the heart pumping.

Back on topic the men of my race and thin women of all races taught me when a man wants you he wants you. It maybe over the most craziest reasons or good reasons. Like a size zero black girl who gets stalked over and begged for attention just because she is thin meaning to me he likes rail thin women all the men after her. I can be fat and caring, loving, and sent from God, but it won’t matter to the him’s after her.

Like its ok to have a preference for any race of men or women. Like my latin coworker in Florida loved black men and she was young and super large that I even out walked her (thats bad) she told me that she loved their skin tone, the way they walked, but never dissed her own race of men to the point you think she was from the 1800’s racist.

But if you say you don’t want a loud black woman (yet your very hood) and that we do this and that wrong, I feel its just as bad that you date a loud non black woman who has everything you didn’t want in a black woman.

Its like me I hate gold teeth, the sagging pants, the slang, and the give and get nothing of the relationship yet I get that in non black guy and feel its ok….then I feel Im pretty racist myself if I did that.

Me being black has its cons from people judging what Im suppose to be based on the media and yes some black women act it as if thats normal.

Another bad thing in my opinion is being super fat date a culture that feels being obese is curvy and thick almost anorextic and being loved and cherished by him….lose the weight and run back to your own race of men….yes really happened and made me wonder what if we didn’t have a obese and weight issue in America….would these type of couples be so high?

As Im losing weight very slow too slow and looking in the mirror as my body forms from a blob to some form of ladyhood.I feel Im not that bad off yes I feel Im ugly, but Im not my skin tone, Im not my race, Im not the media, Im me just me.


Last note before rushing off to massage 😀

Last year I was heading to the race trac a gas station. A fat black dude with CD’s in hand trying to become the next biggie smalls or whatever rapper he wanted to be.

He called me out and said I like what I see! He told me he is going to be famous someday and making big money (many don’t… be a rapper is a turn of luck and great beats and shout whatever you want on your song) I said wow good for you (I rather date a dentist then a rapper, or better a police officer serving the publics safety then a rapper) He said can I have your number? I said no, but thank you. He was shocked and asked why not?! I said well once Im thin like a thin white woman I will come in your life once you make it…not now. (I feel thin white, asian,Latin women are smart they know their size is valuable)

Plus I watch the media I see how all rappers had a child with a dark or brown skin black woman. Once rich and have it all those women are out of sight and mind.

Being thin means you deserve the best.

Being thin means you can date a starving artist or a famous artist (artist to me means in painting really)

Being thin I can have what I want….even the cute broke guy.

Im learning to love me better slowly at one time I did care about my skin tone, but I see too many thin women my shade darker and lighter to other races to care anymore. My skin is just a oorgan to protect me and I want a guy who will love me now at my darkest to my lightest in the winter. A guy with dreams and goals, and believes in family.


I just want to EAT this is too hard(And I had a date, but won’t let it happen this is why…)…-269.4

September 20, 2012

Diet cokes and coca cola zero have been my comfort though out the day, fighting urges to eat at will. I just weighed again and its at 269.6 pounds. I always weigh in the morning which is why Im 269.4. Its like my body wants to go right back into the 270’s. Im suffering here and hate when people make losing weight so easy when its a addiction and a battle. At this point three hot pockets and a large rocky road sundae with the works such as whip cream, chocolate syrup, candy toppings and anything I darn well please to be topped on it sounds way better then being slim and dating! Its that bad!

I take the stairs, I walked to work 40minutes each morning since stopping my ride, have to go up three flights of stairs every morning losing air and somewhat my life once I reach the top!, I fight every day not to eat again and again just once having 1500 calories today…yea yesterday was a little more calorie wise, but that beats 3000-5000 calories I can naturally consume with pride! Only thing I get is oh I lost a few ounces which to me is total bull and highly unfair Im serious! I mean I was just close again to eating whatever I love the flavors of food, and the feeling of not starving.

This morning I went straight to work and felt terrible 6am this morning had to get a snack fast I felt weak and just in general a horrible feeling. If I didn’t have to wake up 5am and be working so early I wouldn’t feel like Im going to die of not eating 5am in the morning! Im trying so darn hard when its so easy to turn the over on…..its real bad when Im looking through thick cookbooks like a turned on woman to her man….flipping pages of food porn, and even bought two and fell asleep with it laying right next me it!

Let me share a story with you….

I use to work for a retail place that sold clothes for those on a budget…no  not goodwill.

My manager was a Mexican woman with high self esteem, she had the self worth of a plus size black woman. And she was 300 and something pounds yet had pride that I could never feel with thighs screaming at each other with each rub and lack of air, with a gut hanging enough to have someone grab on for safety before almost falling off a cliff, she had dark brown eyes like mines, wavy hair to her shoulders, and a nice smile, and was annoying at times, but kinda caring. One day she showed me this super red thong and with a large grin said my husband would love me in these……….my stomach turned because I felt grossed out me being fat myself why would I buy a thong to get lost up my____?  I then knew she was dating within my race. They met at a fast food restaurant she was in the drive though and he was taking her order…Im sorry but it would be so funny if they made a fat romance movie like this! She was mad he got her order wrong and since she always was a popular customer they hit it off. I can see that happening since I would go to 7-11 so much every employee knew me to the point one guy joked about my weight, so I stop buying their pricey food from there and if they see me its only to pick up a free flyer….he got too comfortable, even pizza hut guy knows me well, sonics do now….so love can happen for us in the drive thru or walk in. My whole point is I see the large women that date within my race, but always wondered don’t they know they can have any guy (no matter his race, height,religion) if they pay his bills, be his sex toy, ect? Well not all guys some will, but will have their idea woman on the side you will learn about in a year or so.  Like my cousin dates out because he said black women won’t support him (meaning free rent and food ect) so he dates very large women,but would like a fit or slim one (who doesn’t)  Its like when your huge guys see you as something that can care for them in many ways, even if he works its really about him. Large women have found true love that respects them, but Im not waiting in my 70’s for that to come around :/

Anyway I could of had a date,he has a degree, goes to my home state sometimes, even took his mom with him and she loved those four days! I met him on craiglist (yes the garbage site) we texted on and off for maybe 3 months now. We never met…craiglist is um eww. Anyway he text me(3 days ago) that he is bored tired of going to work then home and wanted to go on a date with me…I don’t know how he looks like just were in the same age range thats all. I was excited and thrilled my first date with whoever he is….but recall I sent a picture of me 3 months ago in my panties and bra and asking him from a males view what he thought (at the time I was 262 pounds).

He is open to going to the arts has no spending limits (i asked) ,BUT get this I still have to pay my own way this is such a fat girls treatment! Now if I knew him and we been on many dates and a total gentleman I see no problem in treating him back of course, but my first date will not AGAIN will not be me being asked out on a date to pay my own way I can do that alone!

Also two days ago my 5th grade bully who got my mom to give my number …..see in 5th grade we were friends, then she turned bully then friends again and no one liked her. Today she even says she wish she was nicer. Im not stupid she wanted me as a friend to help her with her newborn you know western union…were not friends.

She got with this guy she calls her man, he is in and out of jail, cheated on her at her own place, the next week she forgives him and sleeps with him because she wanted sex and told me my issue is because I didn’t get any _____yet!

So were from two worlds here. I told her what I want in a guy, one with goals, kinda cute, but not that important in looks, someone I wouldn’t be ashamed of in public, is romantic and funny and normal.

So why is she trying to get me to date her cousin? Yes im black and so is he, but that doesn’t mean were right for each other. She sent his pic and I almost fainted! He looked angry in the face, had muscles…lots of them, tons of tats not just a few ,but all over his abs and shoulders and yes the first thought was he looks dangerous like he could knock the short cake outta me. I lie and said wow he looks great next minute he is calling my phone off the hook! I said text only I mean I had zero interest after seeing that pic. After texting I found out he sold drugs, said he got all these gold digging bitches after his money and his homies were setting him up because they were jealous. He said he stopped after going to jail. I asked what do you do now? Being nice I told him im a stocker…he kept saying I work, I asked doing what…he wouldn’t tell me just that he is called lil daddy….in my mind I was like does he have kids somewhere?  So today I didn’t text him at all and won’t and she is crazy  to think Im stupid like her to date the same type of guy she had a baby with that he don’t want to take care of. She stopped calling me sis because we will never be related through family in a million years!  Just because im fat and black does,’t mean I want a thug in my life, and take any kind of man.

FOR ALL RACES OF WOMEN (who are fat)

1) Never take just any guy for company and never allow yourself to be used!

2) Yes you can have a great guy…just takes longer to get when thin so and so had it since high school and even now.

3) If a guy ASK you out then he pays I mean why ask me out? If you ask him then you can’t expect him to pay for you.

4) Don’t have a date at popeyes, or kfc, or taco bell I seen fat girls on dates there :/ holding hands Im like really!?

When your slim you tend to get the best guys from anywhere of any backround.

Even if he is terrible another one will be the charm or the next.

Even abused thin women have someone wanting them ready to save them, the fat ones are on their own with no guy willing to rescue her from her monster.

The cons of being black and fat

September 10, 2012

1) When you go into a acting agency and ask what roles you think you can land…your told the pine-sol lady. Before she existed what were you given then as a possible role?

2) To be nice people will tell someone they look like so and so celebrity, why is it since I was 17 here and there been told I look like Oprah? Yes Hollywood doesn’t have many blacks on purpose, but keep such a comment to yourself and just say wow you look nice today.

3) This goes for both white and black women when I bring up weight loss please don’t tell me about Queen latifah,Jill scott, or Monique and how rich they are and blah blah blah…um to the white ladies how about you stick these ladies on your wall next to the scale and let them be your aim(like I thought), and for the black ladies just HUSH.

4) Just because im black and fat doesn’t mean I go to church, speak in tongues and blow on the mic for Jesus…um don’t go to church at all :/

5) Just being black in general everyone will think your christian and have a church, im proud of other blacks looking into other religions and discovering more instead of living in a box. Me I do believe in God, but religion is not my life like others,it use to be, but seen too many things to continue that.

6) Im not down with being called out at and being told as if your saying im sexy that you love fat ass women and big woman is that how you asked a plus size white, asian, or latin woman…the chances are nope just the fat black ones.

7) Stop thinking that were all loud, careless ect. yes thanks to black men wearing drag in the media acting a fool as if this is black woman behavior and yes some black woman are that way, but so are other races too! I get tired of being told im different um no just being me. Even on craiglist I noticed many men of all races are willing to give a chubby white or Latin woman a chance kinda, but zero chance for black women. we get equal chance if its just for sexual reasons only if were fat. Oddly if thin were worth the time not many black men are in drag as thin black women on screen acting a fool, loud ect.

8) Just because im fat don’t mean I will take you as you are, if your super old, or want to live off me its not happening. Single for 25 years and if it leads to another 25 I rather that be more saddened your in my life.

9) Just because im a fat black woman doesn’t mean that by you saying this why the brothas date big beautiful white woman because they take care of there men money wise, shelter, and uplift him….um good for you and them just because im black and your black were met to be and I better hurry and get you before you get a white woman instead :/ How about this give me 100 dollars and I will help you search for one? Really! And again just because im fat doesn’t mean im rich and have the means to support you. Im rich in size, but thats it.

10) No I don’t know how to dance like that….

11) No im not proud to be fat, phat, bbw, or so called thick and no never on purpose I got to this size.

12) Yes im desperate for love, but not desperate to have sex with you so you can say hey its true fat chicks do it better….another myth all fat women are loose, um no not really in my opinion and what I seen its really thin women they get the best guys daily after them so who can blame them sometimes? It upsets me when I hear guys say oh fat women are easy yea im so easy im a virgin! Is a fat woman singing this?

13) That I have about 2-3 kids I been asked do I have kids by my own and other races, but never asked if im married…ever. I would never have kids in the environment im living more props to the other ladies of all races who do in my area with a man or not, but no never mines. My kids will be a apart of me I don’t want to raise any part of me alone and in the hood no thanks. So if anyone ask me from now on do I have kids im saying no im not married yet.

14) Don’t tell me how I have such a beautiful face (make up is a true blessing) and then you stop right there.

15) Don’t be a really good looking guy and know it and flirt with me making me all shy and stuff as a joke and leave…that hurts.

16) Don’t tell me about so and so who is fat and married to a successful man who cherish her and never lay a hand on her….why I never get to meet them? Sounds made up. 

17) Stop considering me a strong black woman in my mind I’m far from that and I make it known at my job im a lady don’t think I will allow you to have skinny women on the side saying oh how heavy, but your working me like a ox not going to happen.

18) No im not a fan of Beyonce, I was of Destiny’s child. And yes don’t expect me to have the ring tone if he likes he going to put a ring on it…ewww

19) Yes im a ditz and can’t help it, I mess up, do things that make others laugh, but never on purpose stop considering me slow because im black and its not black behavior to I guess act like a dumb blond, but another non-black girl who is just like me you don’t consider her slow its just white behavior and normal. As a fat black woman im suppose to be all serious and honey child.

20) The reason I don’t exercise is not because of my hair (Im not that crazy or care how others feel about it) its because I rather relax play sims 3 and dream of a better life someday

21) No I never watched basketball wives or house wives of Atlanta I over hear about it or so and so is saying im about to watch it,but it sounds like a hot mess.